Tired of the feeling of dread.
Tired of the dark thoughts.
Tired of feeling worthless.
Tired of not having the words to express to friends how I feel.
Tired of not knowing what triggers my depression.
Tired of not knowing what happiness is.
Just tired of it all.
Battling demons for most means drugs and alcohol for me it’s my brain. A part of my brains knows I’m a decent looking guy with a good personality and an average to above average IQ and then there’s the other side.
Growing up I was told I was ugly and stupid, that I would amount to nothing. Sadly it’s that side of my brain that controls me and I wish I knew how to turn it around.
Somehow I need to learn how to think more positively of myself and my outlook but I don’t know how.